not my will

The homily last Sunday was a bit timely for me because I can say I'm on that stage recently. Many of us may be afraid of the unknown, of the uncertain, of the future. We do not know what will happen to us tomorrow and we become disturbed, depressed and scared. We often think too much of the future that we forget that we still have to live today. And with that, we miss opportunities and moments to be happy and to live life fully. In the priest's homily, he is saying that God assures us that He will be there for us and will take care of our future. All we have to do is to put our trust in Him. That God is a faithful and loyal God. He will never let us down just as long as we entrust everything to Him and let His will be done. I think this is one of the times that God wants me to put my full trust in Him. I am sometimes worrying about what will happen to me in the future or where I will be next year or in the years to come. But who knows? No one right? So i'm just the same with everybody else. No matter how much we prepare or plan for the future, only God's plan for us will happen. He may be giving us tests, failures, to realize that we are nothing without Him and that only He can help us and give us what we need and what He thinks is best for us. And no doubt, if He will give us the best, then that is indeed the best thing that will happen to us because it is given to us by God who is Perfect. I know that my faith isnt that strong but i am really working on it. I am praying that God may teach me to be more faithful and to be more trusting to Him. I really wanted to leave everything to God but sometimes, since i am only human and weak, i still get scared. well I know through prayers He will help me. He has always been there for me in the saddest times of my life and i should know and believe that He will be there for me til the end. I just gotta have faith. Not my will but Thine be done!